Find

The time will pass,
The time is now,
When we feel and see differently.

We feel as though no one knows us,
Not truly.

We wonder what others think,
Am I pretty and weak,
Or ugly and strong,
Mabe all for in different pairs of eyes.

The time will pass,
The time is now,
Where we're are lost,
But must find ourselves.

Expectations

When your good at some thing for example, cleaning drawing, writing, and  several other things, your expectations are so high.  Some one thinks they can come in and interrupt you when you are doing your thing and say, "Dora please go do the dishes," "Please clean the cat box," "Please pick up the dog poop." and exc.

It seems like they think we have our entire adult hood to do what we want, but I control your childhood and teenage hood.

Flavorless

Lately I've been very bored. When I hang out with my friends I'm not, but after it just becomes a memory and nothing feels like it has changed.

Lately when I eat the food is flavorless. I've had a PB and J some many times in my life that it doesn't tastes like anything anymore and if I'm lucky it tastes terrible. The few colors in my room are mashed as if becoming mashed potatoes. and it's cold with no welcoming into it.
When I watch a movie I realize it's the same story over and over again and it's hard to find a good movie anymore.
When I'm at home I don't really feel like we're a family just a bunch of people who now each other's names.

I'm not sure things just seem flavorless.

Fun

My BFF and I had a sleep over and it was lots of fun. We didn't really do much activities  but it was nice to hang out. We had only hung out twice since the end of summer and I was going crazy even though we sit next each other in school all most every day it still isn't the same. I missed hanging out with her and still do and I can't wait to again.

This a picture I had found roaming the internet and it reminds me of her.

Scary

It's scary at school these days. I feel like there is always a pair of eyes staring at the back of my head. When I turn around and scan the classroom it's always this one popular boy that has multiple girls liking him. I feels as though he is trying to make eye contact with me. And when he does for a slight second I look way and I still feel like he is watching me.

Some of My Art

Very few really look at my art, but some of my brother's high school friends came over and recognized my Bf's art. I am jealous and the jealousy annoys me, but I figured I could show some of it to people wiling to look at it.

Me as a elf

Nora (A dark elf that might go into my book)

Black Canary (Dinah DC Character)

My first one perspective drawing

A card I made for my BF's birthday of us

Weird Feel

When we actually talk to each other and we're having fun then I say some little thing and she takes it the wrong way. When she talks to my after that she sounds like she is blaming me for my honesty. I feel like I say something and then she regurgitates it. I have a feeling something big is going to snap us apart like a pair of chopsticks.

And I think I have a crush, but one I can't confess in less to my parents. Because I know that if I tell some people that I know they won't look at me the same way and I will be very depressed.