Changes

There have been many recent Changes in my life.

I've moved from the Southern West Coast to the Middle\East Coast in this past month and had a busy couple months before the move. It was a very sudden one, a heartbreaking move, and a nail in the foot, but the wound is  healing ever so slowly. The Southern West Coast is dry and bare with few beauties in sight. For some it is the beauty they crave, but not for my household and I. What we see as beauty is the furry creatures that skitter in the corner of the eye, and the lush soft, kind, and gentle green that sprouts and loves the sun, and does not dread it, the sprouts that stay alive and grow even greater and more beautiful.

The sudden nail in the foot is healing, but keeps reopening. It is hard being alone all the time, my parents phones always ringing so that there is not much of a chance for a call to a fellow friend. I haven't had much to do since I'm to shy for my own good, that I stay hidden in my home playing video games and watching anime, which is most definitely not good for thy health. But I do go to work with my father helping him re-key homes and that keeps my in shape... for the most part. I will soon sign up for freshman year on the 31st of July and I'm nervous, very, very nervous, but also so, so, so excited. I'll try to get into honors classes and joining the anime club, along with playing my Cello in the school Orchestra. And hopefully start a modeling page so I can get into modeling, which has also been a desire of mine for quite some time. I'm very excited for the future.  

I miss my old life when I could fell I could cry and be free.

Smile

The smiles aren't real,
The smiles are fake,
They are distant tricks,
That like to play,
It might just be me,
With my misery.

It's good to feel,
Feel a fresh start,
And wear a true smile,
From a true happy heart.

Love

Love is hard believe,
It's so strong,
But can make you so weak.

Cello

I absolutely love playing my Cello even if some people think I'm bad at it it's one thing that I don't want to stop doing when I get older and older and older, or you never know younger and younger and younger.
Well I took some photo's and I wanted to show people. My teacher gave it to me for free and I think it's the most beautiful Cello in the world. And his/her name is Cellificent. 

California

SO I went to California this weekend cause my father had to help the business people catch up on work so my little brother and I went with my parents cause we were sick and I saw the Hollywood sign I was so happy and excited.  My parents are seriously considering if we will move there and I think that would be awesome. we could see the ocean every day and mist and mountains, compared to south Phoenix AZ. The only thing that wouldn't be cool about it would be that I couldn't see my BFF and Manoa.  

 

Find

The time will pass,
The time is now,
When we feel and see differently.

We feel as though no one knows us,
Not truly.

We wonder what others think,
Am I pretty and weak,
Or ugly and strong,
Mabe all for in different pairs of eyes.

The time will pass,
The time is now,
Where we're are lost,
But must find ourselves.