Anger

I discovered what has taken hold of me. I am very unhappy, because someone that I so stupidly allowed in, totally spit it back in my face because of the love and care that I share with people. It makes me so angry. If I could see that person I would barely hold it in, but I would make it known to that person that I know what they did. They would feel guilty and truthfully apologize, at least, but my trust has already been broken and I have already given to many 2nd and 3rd chances to just forgive. And it's not boyfriend drama, because it does kind of sound that way, but it's not.

Sometimes I catch myself doing something doing, something that I would not usually do, I think it's because I'm growing up and I'm still not used to the idea. I looked at myself in the mirror the other day and I just I say something, someone completely different. Someone I didn't know, I say a grown matured happy person with a fear of loneliness. But right now I'm happy :)